about last night...

last night I can sum up in 5 words:
HATE
Love
Depression
Happiness 


So typical of choir shows having this effect.
I've always seen it happened to others, just never thought it could happen to me.

DRAMA.

There is no other word like it,
and this word is always negative no matter how you place it.

So this is what I want to say....
KBS i'm really sorry for just letting you slip away when your sad,
and that i really want to help you and make you feel a sense of happiness

Even though your decision was "no" I still care about you a lot. I just want the
awkwardness to disappear. Just talk straight up. I'll talk back.

And to the other person who ruined my night/life.
Why? Why do you demand so much attention all the time.
YOUR not like that. The stunts you pull of don't just make me look bad, it
does the same for you. But why can't you see that.

Right now I am in a state of un-decision, don't say your sorry,
cause your not.


Please, the best thing you could do right now is leave me the f***
alone.


Thats all I want.


Why do you have to be a psycho bitch sometimes.


You know what, I just want my friend back.




Then despite all of that drama. I did find some good in the night.
I found out that although I was depressed, I had friends there for me.
The ones that I would do anything for.
There for me :)


They are the ones who make me see love and compassion
I really do love my friends.


B: "Hey are you ok?"
Me:"No, I just cant believe this happening.."
Me:"I just have to go get it all out of my system."
B:"I'm kinda worried...are you ok?"
Me:"Nope but i'll be fine...tell me when we are lining up."
B:"Where are you, im worried, I see you i'm coming."


These are how my friends care, and i respect them for it.


Just a quick side note, isn't it strange how you have problems with one person
and then all of choir finds out, and you have no idea, that every single
person in the room knows....its just strange. like why do you need to know.




about last night...