what a night.

preparing anyone about to read this, this is a rant. Be prepared. Okay so tonight I talk to Caitlin about breaking up and stuff. She responds, "Just tell me, when you do this are you going to regret it?" I obviously respond no, and she pulls out the anniversary gift that cost me $30 and just gives it to me. What The Fuck! I lost it, and had uncontrollable tears flowing down my face. The predestined plot of this night quickly turned on me. I was lost, heart broken, and fatigued. Oh but wait there's more. I was getting harsh looks all night from her, everyone in choir thinks me and evan are gay. Like come on, there are plenty of other guys with guy friends. How does that make me homo. Anyway I decided to trust evan and go to iHop, whereas everyone else had left to go to in-n-out. The logical cheap choice. But no, iHop. I already know that everyone he had invited would bail. So it ended up being me, his friend, and him. His friend the know it all, cocky ass hole. I order overly priced french toast. Evan this breakfast meal, and John a shake. If it weren't making fun of me, then john didn't speak. He proceeds to my car afterwards, hits my window, and says "turn it off reverse dumb ass." I swear I will never talk to that fuck head again. First impressions last. And that's sticking with me. And now I'm feeling regret, sorrow, and despair. In a somewhat suicidal mood, cause college is coming up, senior project is due, grades coming up. Too Much! I need to leave all of this. I'm so sad and confused, I really just need someone there for me.